Mandarin Movie

PLEASE DO ME A HUGE FAVOR!!! can you please upload on youtube our mandarin movie???? PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

No idea what to title this blog

Oh okay :) im glad ur doing something about it and hopefully we can both lose 20lbs together!

Im feeling really depressed today. I dunno why. Maybe daddy, maybe weight, maybe pre period pms, maybe the weather again. Its shitty again.

I want a tongue piercing. But that wikl be my reward for myself after i quit smoking.

I feel so lost and overwhelmed. I have to figure out what i want my 2nd year sched to look like and its hella depressing me. It seems so binding. Like im choosing my life. I want to gain canadian citizenship. Which just means i have to be here for a long ass time.

Its funny, i thought coming to uni half way across the world would let feel free. But i feel as constricted as i did in triboa, just more alone.

Like being surrunded by a lot of people but am still alone. Ughhhhh...

lol so much for not having long posts WOMAN! :P

Hahaha that post was hella long!

But we moved in because we found out that stuff has been missing. I mean small stuff that you wouldn't notice was gone because it was tiny but of great value such as Cielo's white gold ring with diamonds, my favorite perfume that I got from her mom and Shim's perfume that Cielo gave her. I think some dresses were missing too.  We moved in with friends because we couldn't afford the place for the two of us and besides it would be too big for just the two of us as well. We still have our own room. The two people living with us are our friends. We met each other during the same time in Miriam, so yeah. I think we know them pretty well because before we even moved in together Brenda was practically living with us every summer so it isn't that difficult to get used to and our other roommate Tats, is always out because she's archiving indie films in New Manila (near Divisoria, I think. hahaha you know me. I don't know shit in Manila). Cielo and I already talked about what we would do if we broke up and we just said that we'll still live together but just as friends... But I don't know what will really happen because sometimes you really can't predict how bad a breakup will be.

I don't think though that we're getting used to each other because there's still some things that I didn't know before that she would tell me when we sit alone together and smoke. But I don't know. And don't be sorry if you're blunt. It's better to be blunt than going around and lightening things up. It's just going to be harder in the future when you say the blunt words after saying those good hearing words. hahaha Get? :)) And she doesn't cook much anymore and I'm trying to lose weight. I have learned how to cook! (FINALLY!!!) not just cup noodles but like vegetables and chicken breast. I actually lost around 20 pounds already but I have to lose 20 more to be 120 so that the coaches are happy as well. They make me run extra if I don't make the time limits in sprints and they make me do extra ab workout! :S Cielo doesn't even know the first thing about exercising haha that I know. LOLZ hahaha and yes I am sorry that I keep forgetting you were here when the jejemon wave came out but theres one that's called tsupakers which is like emo + jejemon... WEIRD!!!!

sleepover note

One of my closest girlfriends here left me a note in the morning kasi she slept over. Her bf broke up with her and she needed a girls night. It looks like a post sex note, if u take it out of context. Hahahahaahhahaha. Ewwww. Shes bi rin too. She came out to me like three days ago. She assured me she has no crushes toward me. Thank goood .

jEjEm0n...

please i can out jeje you. :P hahaha. l0Lz pHoWzzzzz.

Hella effing long.

I just woke up. hahaha and i read your message! :) im glad that you got the email yo. uhm.....i laughed at the end. when you said i would end up going back and forth to reply to your message. :P hm...because your telling me about cielo over this sexy little thaaang. :P hahaha. damnit that should've been the name for the blog. anyways, im assuming that you havent told her? just curious lang. :P

okay, i have the blog in a separate window. so i can reply properly! haha

wtf, are you talking about?? I was there when jejemons were there. you and macy are completely forgetting that i was there. :((((

New apartment: yay! :) I saw the pic from twitter. tweet tweet tweet tweet. hahaha. la lang. :P just being random. uhm....what was the reason again for you guys moving out? I hope this rooming situation works. because 4 is a larrrge number. and might get awkward if you dont know them really well. im guessing you know them, but like i dont know if you're especially that close with them. wait, are they your friends or cielo's friends? just out of curiousity, what would happen with the living situation if you and cielo were to break up?

cielo situation: honestly babe, i love you. but i wish you wouldn't give 150% of yourself every single time your in a relationship. it sounds to me like parang she's maybe getting bored or sanay na sayo. if you know what i mean. im sorry if im pretty blunt about this. you know me, i just run my mouth without thinking. i dont want you to be hurt or sad, just see what i say as another point of view on the situation. it takes two to be in a relationship. if shes kind of hinting that she wants out or something, dont take it as "we're breaking up right now" just relax. kind of find out what the problem is, if its something that cant be specifically solved or even described because there is no problem, just nawawala na ung exciting relationship feeling due to old age (HAHAH!), then just enjoy the time that you have left with her. If it happens, it happens. if it doesn't, have you seen your face?? you one hot sexy lil mama. (no homo).

this is not me being a bitch, but im just telling you what i think, even though i know you wont listen to me. this is just me rambling, so please dont take it personally, im just telling you what i think okay!?!?!? :P im starting to uhm.....not really think that cielo is good for you. i feel like the reason you guys moved out of your apartment together, other than cost (which is like understandable) and distance (which is a pretty stupid reason, because you guys were already hella close to school), is like to feel that you guys aren't married. you know what i mean? you guys are slowly kind of moving from being lovers (HAHAHAHA. such a weird word to type) to being roomates. and i also feel like shes not a good influence on you kasi your gaining weight (i love you, please dont kill me. im just worried about your health and confidence). i know that if it were up to you, you wouldn't have gained. and be honest, its not like cielo cooks and eats the healthiest things or does any proper excercises. and you are the easiest person to influence. i know from experience, but i only use my powers for good, or do i? ;) hahaha. jk jk tell me if im wrong, and ill gladly take it back. i love you my little ball of siopao!!! XD

i got an app to post blogs from my phone, soooo, i will be blogging on the gooo :P
ps, can we please not do such long blogs. i will end up being lazy and not do them.
love love. xx

I forgot!

I see on facebook that you have your license to bartend! AWESOME!!! :)) Tell me how it goes and if you already have a job bar tending. ILY! :))

I LAVET!!! :)

I love it and yes i love our favorite Anime character! :D LOLZ (hahaha i'm so jejemon) (if you don't know what that means go look at it on wikipedia hahaha) <3

I have some time to post on here before I go to training. :))

What's new with me? Well... I have moved into this big apartment with Cielo, Brenda (one of the many "anak") and Tats (she used to study in Miriam but transferred to some other college and is now trying to get into UP while working, which i think will be difficult). Anyway, I having a hard time with school. :(( I have to read tons of chapters every night and I have tests like everyday! :(( I'm so stressed. :/

I think the highlight of this kwento is Cielo hahaha. Not anything related to sex life or anything. It's actually a problem i'm telling you. :)

She talked to me the other day before we going to sleep and asked me if I think that we will just be friends in the future. I told her no but I'm not sure. She said that she was thinking that we will be. I thought that she was breaking up with me because of that so I cried and stormed out for a while and then came back in the room saying why she thinks that. She said it's because we don't get to spend time with each other since we don't get to see each other in school because of our schedule. I mean I understand that but like as much as I want to spend time with her. I just can't. I mean I can't even skype with you. You're like the number one priority to talk to and even I can't make time for that since of my studies plus time difference. I spend time with her during weekends. I don't even go out and party anymore. Not only because of her but so many other reasons and she sometimes forces me to go hang out with her friends or mutual friends because she feels bad that she doesnt hang out with them anymore. So i'm like I don't know what to say. LOL I mean we talked about it already and we just ended up talking about the future if it was realistic that we'll still be together. I said yes it would be unless we go separate ways during graduate school. You know what I mean?

I know it's going to be difficult for you to reply to this since you're going to keep on going back to read and then reply hahaha! I love you babe! (no homo) <33 :))

DYESS

I had the hardest time thinking of a name for this blog. hahahahaha. :) But I found the perfect one!! SO that every time we open this blog, we have our little smile about our cool aid margaritas at 2pm for no reason. Well, american independence day....in the phils. XD hahahaha. AND! I found this hella epic layout. we're little devils in disguise like that...

Now, all I have to do is find an app for my iphone on blogger. then it'll truly be epic. :) So we have our very own little space in the cyber....space. XD hahaha.

hm....updates on me...not much. been feeling kind of depressed lately. dunno why again, but i miss youuuuuuuuuuuu <3 tell me what you think about this blog. :)